dengarkanlah aku..

i don't wanna go back!
not yet.
:(


sighs.




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Now playing: Hijau Daun - Suara (Ku Berharap)
via FoxyTunes

:) :) :)

yesterday marks the last day of 3rd year!
so there, i made it.
we all did.
hoho you have zero idea how it felt like, passing up the block exam paper.
what with the scene at exam hall before the exam started.
haha.
i'm on top of the world :P

omg i can't believe it has been 3 solid yrs staying here.
i survived :)
the people that matters make it even more worthwhile.
ceeeyhh ckp mcm dh nk grad esok je..huhu
i still have 2 yrs ++ here anyway. but the next time i step my foot here, i'm gonna be a 4th yr student.
lalalala..
somehow that sounds..orgasmic. haha. just perfect.

went to watch Transformers 2 : Revenge of The Fallen, last nite.
two words to describe it.
pure awesomeness!
wuhoo!
went bowling before that with azree farina n nan.
then later hang out at the cafe on the 1st floor till arnd 11, before we went to the cinema.
there's a story behind the journey huhu
but lets just not share it here shall we?
i shall just keep it to myself.
haha.
n to those who were there itself.
they know.

hmmm..if i were to judge, i think i'll give 8.5/10 for the movie.
can't rly concentrate though.
got sleepy at some point. ngeh :p
its a midnight show aftr all! haha
will watch it again n again n again when im back in msia.
counting hours!
but yet. somehow, im not that excited to go back this time around.
maybe cuz nobody is at home except for my parents? no?
whos gonna layan me merepek n all?
my younger sis' registration day in UiTM Dungun (hahh take dat, she got dungun T_______T) is on the same day im goen back to msia, so obviously im not gonna see her then :(
my younger bro is in alam shah aldy since the school break's over.
n both my elder sisters are working.
or maybe i just don't wanna leave jogja yet.
just maybe.
sighssssssss.
if i can bring home the people that matters, thats exactly what i'll do.
if only.

overall yesterday was fun.
couldn't have ended my last days in jogja before goen back any better.
you made my day :)
:)





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Now playing: Matt Nathanson - Come On Get Higher
via FoxyTunes

the fine art of longing.

i bet you don't know.
that you're the sole reason i wake up and go to school for.

i bet you don't have a clue.
how your smile made my day. or even week.

i bet you never notice.
how my heart skipped a beat. each time you walked past me.

i bet you have no idea.
how the world seems to move in slow motion. just cuz ur in it.

i bet you don't know.
i bet you don't have a clue.
i bet you never notice.
i bet you have no idea.


nothing else will ever do,
'cause all i need is you.


the heart does things for reasons that even reasons can't understand.
do the math.




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Now playing: Lifehouse - You Belong To Me
via FoxyTunes

*crossed fingers*

who am i kidding?


sighsssssssss.

i'll keep on wishing though.
upon every stars.

every. single. one.


p/s: all the best to those taking OSCE tomorrow. lets pray all goes well. we can do this! :)




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Now playing: T.I. - Whatever You Like
via FoxyTunes

dreaming aloud.

made a scene in kantor imigrasi.
sighs.
they just don't freaking geddit how we would do anything humanly possible, to go back to msia.
like duuh?
but thank god its all settled.
thank god..

OSCE is on monday!
there are 5 skills this sem, baby delivery, IUD and implant insertion, gynecology xm, mental status exam and pathology reflex.
mental status is the hardest!
there'll be this simulated patient who will act like a nuthead for the whole 7 minutes (or is it 10mins?) and we'll have to korek whatever information from her/him!
its crazy!
sometimes they won't even speak!
dat, is one thing.
in some cases, they scream la act like chicken la act like we're their master n they're scared of us la.. all those crazy stuff.
aishhh.
i just hope i can do well in that.
dhla my group is the 1st group on monday! aiyayayy!
n block exam is on thursday!
so help me god.
lets just pray all goes well :)

thr are many things to be thankful today..
i passed my anat xm :)
i dun care how much i get, as long as i dun have to do remedials.
yay!
n also for the kittas erp thingy.
i supposed its all settled, after we went to see the head of imigrasi office itself, and explained about our situation.
i actually shed tears of joy haha when he said that its ok, that we can go back as scheduled and renew our kittas when we get back here.
god knows how i felt then.
rase nk sujud syukur pon ade huhu :)
n lastly, for life as it is now.
i can smell sunshine ♥

if you only knew what i knew but couldn't say..



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Now playing: Hilary Duff - Now You Know
via FoxyTunes

:)

:)




enough said. ♥



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Now playing: India Arie - Chocolate High (Feat. Musiq Sould Child)
via FoxyTunes

say.

sometimes, some things are better left unsaid.
no matter how much you wanna let it out of your system, it seems like the hardest thing to do.
you just can't.
at one point you just couldn't care less if you croak it out, as long as you say it.
but there are times when you wanna say it in the most beautiful way, no questions asked.
the more you think about it, the more absurd it sounds.
never knowing what could have been is the worst thing one can ever imagine.
you're dying inside. literally.
but yet, you still can't.
you'd rather live with the answer, than die with the question.
the question that never leave your lips.
the question that only one can answer.
and the only one question, that you can't ask.


say what you need to say.
'cuz in the end,
its better to say too much,
than not to say what you need to say.

here's to dreams that never will come true.
cheers.



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Now playing: Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most
via FoxyTunes

♥

oh so addictive.

Cuz you got my head a-spinning just like a
carousel
Thinking of you every minute, I know it's crazy
but true
I'm fa-la-la-la-falling for you
Kind of like a constant craving, I'm underneath
your spell
Baby there ain't no escaping; I know it's crazy
but true
Fa-la-la-la-falling for you..
♥♥

ps: pls pls pls plssssssssssssssss let me at least pass anat xm.

pps: hmmmm. on 2nd thought, nothing.


k done. now mari berkebun. :-B




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Now playing: Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know
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