SOS!

oh saya sungguh malas mau study utk PA exam esok.
apekah kemalasan ini!
sgt kronik!

its nearly 10pm, and well.. believe it or not, i haven't even start memorizing PA!
FTW!
there's like 19 cases kottttttt. with PAP smear slides summore.
i had my coffee already, and yet my eyes are.. well. lets just say they're struggling damn hard to be open.
gila malassssssssssssss T.T
have i been drugged or something? ceyyhh nak jgk salahkan org, padahal sendiri yg malas -__-"

anddddd i haven't search for my LO's (read: learning objectives) for tutorial tomorrow either.
thank god i'm the book scriber. teehee :P
omigosh ape nak jadi ni!
and here i am updating blog pulak.
giloz.
malasnyeeeeeeeeeee!

i need motivation.
i need inspiration.

SOS!




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Now playing: Muse - Can't Take My Eyes Off You
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you.

i. want.




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pre-exam syndrome.

yee mari merepek sebelum exam esok :-B

i just wanna share this lil something i wrote in my diary last month. the occasion is rather too private to share, but i really love this quote, cant recall the source though.

" In life, we all have..

an unspeakable secret

an irreversible regret

an unreachable dream

an unforgettable love..."

soooo the very true eh? i'm pretty sure everyone hav their fair share of these.

the 1st one, is killing me inside.
the 2nd, is something i wish i can forget.
the 3rd, oh well i'm still hoping.. so help me god..
and the 4th, sighss.

wokeiii back to lecture notes. :-B
wish me luckkkkkkk!

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i'd come for you,
noone but you,
yes i'd come for you,
but only if you told me to..


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Now playing: Nickleback - I'd Come For You
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sleep well~

we all look like we feel..

:)

why can't i?

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why can't i breathe whenever i think about you?

why can't i speak whenever i talk about you?

its inevitable.

its a fact that we're gonna get down to it.




so tell me..

why can't i breathe whenever i think about you?

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Now playing: Liz Phair - Why Can't I

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killing me softly.

to say, or not to say?
to pursue, or leave it be?





sighsssss.
i need answers. pronto.



.....

if it takes my whole life,
i won't break, i won't bend,
it will all be worth it,
worth it in the end..




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Now playing: Sarah McLachlan - Answer
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never close enough to say.

don't second guess your feelings.

you were right from the start..



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i can't keep up, and i can't back down.

...

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when, you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin..




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=]

Sie lassen mein Herz singen.

:)




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haywire.

note to self:

• respect the boundaries.
  
• take a step away.
• let time decide.

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Now playing: Chris Daughtry - Over You
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I know I've got close but I'm sure it's too far

still you.


without a doubt.


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the day after

You seem to know the way
To turn my frown upside down
You always know what to say
To make me feel like everything's ok

Nothing works like you..



p/s: i miss home. take me homeeeeee -_-'

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ramblings

oh well. some things have been bugging me for days. weeks, to be exact. or more like months. buttt i'm not saying that its bothering me to the core, apparently not. sighss. its just that, i wish i'm not thinking about it religiously till it gives me headache at times. some things are better left unspoken i guess.

i miss my brother. yes, i know. typical me. haha. i get homesick once in a while. and i miss my lil brother at all times. god knows whyyyy. maybe because we are close. though theres like a 10 yr gap between us, but duh, does it matter? ngehs. buttt now since he's been to SAS, i can sense the closeness starting to fade :| or maybe its just me. but stilllllll. haha x puas hati. last time whenever he's at home, we'll chat like there's no tomorrow. he'll update me with every single thing that happened at home then. but now, we rarely chat. not that i'm complaining, i mean yeah i know he's in a boarding school and all. the times he had at home pon is just during weekends, and he'll probably sleep it off anyway. or play PS2. or go see his friends or something. well i guess he's growing up. and i should probably do the same too.

nothing new. just feel like updating. i've been listening to melee's song today. over and over again. somehow i feel like i can relate to this.

‘Cause this is real, and this is good
It warms the inside just like it should
but most of all
most of all,
It’s built to last


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Now playing: Melee - Build To Last
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the climb

who would have thought, that i will climb up a mountain by 23? haha well almost 23 actually :D it was daymmm tiring, my patella almost popped out i could say, haha.  and i can feel every effing muscle in my body aching, up till now. i was the reason the group had to stop a couple of times cuz i just can't take it anymore -_-" oopsy :P its too late to go back down, nor it is too early to reach the top! but we made it after all! wuhooo! the adrenaline rush was priceless. i have never climb up a mountain before, and this is definitely an experience i'll cherish for life. the group of friends who went on the trip was justtt amazing. i hav the bestie who held my hand climbing up and going down the mountain, and my favourite nona, and a motivator saying "cmon kak G you can do it! sket lagi!"  along the way, and everyone else.. 

all in all, it was worth the climb! nothing beats the feeling when you're up there. the scenery was breathtaking! i thank God to have been given the chance to witness the spectacular view. the journey took around 3 hours if i'm not mistaken. we left jogja around 12.30am, and reached Dieng around 3.30am. the roadtrip sgtlah memeningkan, i had to pop some panadol to get rid of the throbbing headache, which didn't go away pon till we stopped somewhere to wait for the guide. after we reached Dieng, it took around 20-30 more minutes to climb up to the top. we were there to watch the sunrise. MAGNIFIENT view. priceless. it was veryyyy cold up there. and it was surprising how none of us were sleepy haha, considering the fact that we didn't sleep the whole day before. at least i didn't. buttttt that explains the drained energy in a just a blink of an eye. sheesh. but then again, who cares? i reached the top! \m/

after the sunrise, we went to some candi place which i didn't get the name -_-' but the place was awesome as well. the air was soo much cleaner and fresh, compared to here in jogja. here, its like breathing smoke, 24/7. blerghh. if i get lung cancer then i know who to blame x( 

we also went to this place with sulphur pond or something, its not a pond haha! but i dunno what its called :P which btw, smells sooo yuckily suphur-ish. the area was like a desert, everything was white. and smelly. but there's like a water source right in the middle of it, and the water was sooo cold. and clear. rather weird, cuz just nearby there's like a whole pond with boiling sulphur kottt. the guide told us that someone once commited suicide by jumping into the boiling sulphur. disturbing thought! :|

anywayyy, i had fun today. accompanied by this aching muscles. and these dark circles under my eyes. not to mention dehydrated. yay! haha. and i don't even wanna think about tomorrow. i might have to crawl my way out of bed. -_-" thank god its still the weekend :D 

Listening to >> The Vines - Get Free <<

out of boredom.

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

Listening to >> Michelle Branch - You Set Me Free <<

soon will come..

like a heart needs a beat

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like a camera with no flash

like a frame with no picture

like a pen with no ink

like a lamp with no bulb

like a cellphone with no battery

like a song with no lyrics

like a garden with no flowers

like a night sky with no stars

like a car with no gas

like a stripper with no ass haha

like a pimp with no money

like eating maggi kari with no telur -_-"

like having swiss mushroom with no vanilla coke

i can go on with these all day.

..

sighss..

Listening to >> Coldplay - Lost <<

sleeeeepydooda

goen to the beach tomorrow! wuhooo!

:D

i watched Fast n Furious 4 just now, not bad at all. too sleepy now to go in details. plus i don't wanna write spoilers for those who haven't watch it yet :P 

BEACHHHH!!<:-P

Listening to >> Corrine Bailey Rae - Like A Star <<

3 months and counting

i miss home. i miss the feeling of seeing my home into view.

the roundabout, those rows of houses in sec 9 sec 10 n sec 11, concorde, SA mall, naik bukit, turun bukit, housessssss, shopsssss, jalan tebing.. tadaaa.. dah sampai :((

i miss my brother. my dad. my mom. the sisters. :(

i miss you.

i wanna go home.

this place sucks. BIG TIME.

Listening to >> Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most <<

rants

hmmm..

today went well, except for the over-heated microbe session in the unusual lab. with no fan :O wtffff yeah i know. gila panas. anatomy was ok as well, although we didn't get Dr Junaidi like what we wished for -_-' he is like, a life saver to all students taking anatomy kott. his lessons are sooo efficiently effective that you don't mind paying him to teach you the same thing over and over again. cuz after all, most of his questions are gonna come up in the exam later anyway.

a friend of mine asked me to listen to this particular song from the new movie; Confessions of a Shopaholic, entitled Don't Forget Me by Macy Gray. andddddd now i'm addicted :-B

In the wintertime 
Keep your feet warm
But keep your clothes on and don't forget me
Keep the memories
But keep your powder dry too

In the summer by the poolside 
While the fireflies are all around you 
I'll miss you when I'm lonely 
I'll miss the sunshine too

Now don't forget me
Please don't forget me
Make it easy on me just for a little while
You know I think about you 
I hope you'll think about me too

When we're older a little slower it doesn't matter now come on get happy 
'cause nothing lasts forever but I will always love you

Now don't forget me
Please don't forget me
Make is easy on me just for a little while
You know I think about you 
I hope you'll think about me too

for obvious reasons, this song really gets me :| 

i wish things are easier. i just can't help being a bit emotional at times. wait who am i kidding? a bit?? bwahaha.. like soooooooo emotional kot. i can snap at people without even realizing it :| i can roll my eyes at people who don't deserve it, with no feeling of guilt wutsoever. yeahh wtf. i know. i'm sorry, its just not me. i haven't been myself lately. life has been haywire, since that day. i wish i can turn back time, or at least, rewind and replay the good times. so that i don't really bother about whatever it is thats bothering me now. i miss the sunshine. 

NOT looking forward for tomorrow. the things to do is to get up, survive, and go back to bed. wish me luck!

Listening to  >> Macy Gray - Don't Forget Me <<

oh fcuk.

i was stupid enough to fall for it. AGAIN.

...

Listening to >> Adele - Chasing Pavements <<